Where did the time fly???

I have been a bad blogger....I have neglected to tell any information, good or bad..

It's interesting when you've been away for so long, there's so much I want to say, but I don't know how to start. The last two weeks have been mind blowing.

The most memorable moments, were extremely unforgettable. It's not too many moments that I can say, I remember when....or I will never forget where I was. The last two weeks have offered two. The first being the Virginia Tech shooting, I am still numb and truly at a loss of words. I can't imagine being a student, attempting to better prepare yourself for the future, having so many hopes and dreams, and then those dreams being cut short. I can't imagine the pain of a parent, whose lost a child in such a violent manner.

The second happened Friday, at my job. On Friday, a gunman entered one of the buildings on site, and shot and killed his boss, and then turned the gun on himself. It's interesting, you couldn't watch the news the past couple of days without hearing about the VT tragedy, but you never think it could happen to you. For some reason, I thought I was so removed from the possibility that someone could do that here, on a federal, and assumed heavily secured work site, but it happened. During a conversation with my Best Friend on Thurs. I told her that I was playing musical doors at work. Every place I went was determined by whether there was a locked door around. As a Christian, I believe that I shouldn't walk in fear, but in faith. But the Virginia Tech tragedy, touched my soul. For some reason, I felt I knew those students, I could have sat in those classes.

Nothing I had prepared in my mind, prepared me for Friday, April 20Th. When the word finally got around that there was a gunman on the premises here, for whatever reason, I couldn't stop laughing, it wasn't that I thought any of it was funny. It was just something I couldn't control. The fact that my phone wouldn't stop ringing, the fact that my building was in lock down..the fact that what was on the news, was where I was....The only thing that made sense at that point was to laugh, because this could not be happening...

After about a hour and a half, we received word, that the incident was isolated in an building about a block from mine, and we were released to go home... We were warned, to not go near the building...As I promptly walked to my car, I can't describe the feeling that went through my body as helicopters hovered overhead, I can't describe my pleas for people to drive and not to obey that stop sign...I just wanted to GO..

When I finally got home, and found out that the situation had ended with two people dead, I couldn't believe that loss of life had happened so close to me. I think my life changed on Friday...we have to be careful how we treat people, how we act toward people.... But most importantly I learned the importance of having a life outside of work. I understand that my job pays my bills, I'm not in denial about that...my family and friends are what's important...