Food

It's almost been a month since I had my lap band surgery. A whole month... It seems odd. I don't feel any different, I don't look different. At times I want to tap myself on the stomach and ask is this thing on!!

As of Thursday, my mushie/soft food phase ended. According to my Registered Dietician, I could begin eating solid foods. I thought I would be excited. I haven't had regular food since the beginning of February. But instead of feeling liberated, I felt confined by the possibility of eating.

Since the surgery I've been retraining myself to eat to live, and not live to eat. .. But now what?? What do I do when the doctors says, you are now ready to enter the world filled with food. You are no longer bound by five things to eat. What do I do??? What do I do???

It's hard to explain, I feel like I've been in this protective bubble for the last month, and now I'm exposed to the elements. And for everything that I've been through, I don't want to be contaminated.

I knew this would be a struggle of mine...Once I set my mind to something I go for it, but once the routine changes I have a heard time adjusting.

God grant me the strength.